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Walking Kind of Girl

I made it through my workout again today. The downside is that I walked through most of it. I kept thinking about this while I was walking the track today. Actually, I thought about many things...this is the general thought process:

"Yeah, my arches are hurting now, I'm not going to run this next one....okay I'm going to push through it anyway....is it over? can I stop running yet?...oh thank god I can walk again...and now my calves are killing me...I'm going to stop and stretch...I should probably get those insoles, my knees are starting to hurt now...I'm going to just walk the rest of the workout and finish the whole thing...walking is better than nothing at all...maybe I should walk from now on....no, if I only walk it won't feel worth the effort...actually, I'm more of a sprinter, I've always been better at that sort of thing...I remember when I couldn't do stuff as a teenager and I just attributed it to my body type. It's amazing how much your ideas change about those kinds of things...my pantlegs are wet...hey, my socks are staying where they're supposed to be! yay! these were a good idea...I'm not running this one..I can just walk fast...but that's such a cop out...I can push myself!...Yeah, I'm just going to walk...actually I'm going to finish it out by walking, my knees hurt too much and I don't want to hurt myself"

And so on. 

On my walk back I thought about how long it's taken me to get good at the things that I feel pretty good at. And most of them took several years. I think patience is key. At this point I feel like I'm never going to be able to run a full 5k. But if you asked me a year ago if I thought gtep was going to ever end, I would have said no. The more I keep doing this, regardless of how fast or how long I go, the better I'll get. I just have to keep doing it. If I don't, then I will indeed never be able to run 5k. But if I walk now, there's still hope.

Oh yeah, I figured out that 5k = 3.1 miles roughly for those that were wondering. I didn't know either!

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  1. Don't worry! Take it one step at a time. Would it help to do a pre- week one?

    Maybe it would be like walk 5 minutes, jog 60 seconds, walk 3 minutes, jog 60 seconds?

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  2. Do they have that? Because I sort of looked and didn't find anything.

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