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I just remembered what I wanted to write about so two posts today.
I was thinking about all the sports I used to play. I did Softball for 6 years, Volleyball for 4, I also dabbled in track, basketball, swim team and bowling. I wondered how I could have played so many sports for so long and not ever felt like an athlete. I never felt like I was the same as the girls I played with on my teams. They were volleyball players, I just played volleyball. And I realized it was this attitude that's probably held me back from really being athletic.

I'm not a runner, I'm just running. This has big implications for my success I think. As someone who is just running, I never have to feel bad if I don't ever run a marathon. I don't have to worry about finishing my runs in any sort of timely manner. I walked most of my run today. I'm not a runner so that's okay. I'm just someone who happens to be running to get fit. I'm not a fit person, I'm an unfit person doing what fit people do. I'm not a vegetarian, I just eat what vegetarians eat.

I'm doing so many good things for myself right now. Perhaps it's time to identify as the person that I am. I am a singer. I am a wife. I am an ever changing, ever exploring person. I am a runner. I am a healthy person. I eat healthy, I live healthy. When people meet me, they will learn this about me. This is who I am.

I decided to try on some cute nighties randomly for my honeymoon. I was really surprised at how much I liked the way I looked in them. I have a long way to go, but right now is pretty good too.

Screw the scale!!!


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