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Day 8

Um. Snacks. Today was snacks. All the snacks. All the kids eating all the snacks. Mom eating all the snacks.

Highlight of my day:

Throwing candy across the parking lot.

I didn't have eggs for breakfast for the first time since I started. I think it was probably a mistake. I've been craving snacks ALL DAY. And my kids have been worse.

They're kind of amazing actually. They pick around their meals and manage to extract anything with natural sugar or that isn't too unappealing. Then they snack like crazy between meals so that by the time we get to the next meal they can get away with not really eating again.

Basically my kids.
Today was the first day that I've thought much about the food I'm not eating. I've been so focused on trying to wrap my head around what I CAN eat that I haven't been too concerned about what I can't eat. But now that I've kind of got a better reign on the program, it's easier to think about what I'm missing.

I decided to put my foot down with the kids. I realize now why I've been so wishy-washy about it. Instead of having the will-power to stay good for myself, I have to have the will-power for 3 people! I ripped a piece of hard-candy out of Archer's hand today that I told him he could have. But I knew he shouldn't have it because not only had he finally been on program all day, he could choke on it. So I ripped it out of his hand and threw it across the parking lot so I couldn't change my mind. Then I had to listen to 10 minutes of screaming.

Charlotte ate her whole dinner. I made a version of kung pao chicken with a whole lot of zucchini and red pepper. I was proud of her for eating it all. She would not have done that a week ago. An hour later she came home asking if she could have pizza at the neighbors. *sigh* Fine. Have pizza. I don't care anymore.

Since dinner I've been trying to avoid snacking, but I want to so bad! I see 3 possible culprits. I had home-made kombucha with breakfast. The challenge with kombucha is that it's allowed on the program, but you have to let it ferment enough so that sugars are consumed. I don't know if it was fermented enough. I also don't think I had enough protein at breakfast becuase I just wanted to eat snacks all day - especially after dinner. I'm supposed to start over with a slip-up, but I don't know if I had one or not.

I struggled today. I'm going to eat eggs tomorrow.


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