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Day 19

Another day in the books. It was kind of uneventful, which I am rather grateful for.

I didn't really struggle much with food today. Cooking is coming easier now and I feel like I'm in a good groove. I am kind of struggling with this whole notion of "Tiger's Blood" though. I struggled a lot with breathing today. Something was bothering my asthma I think. And I feel like I'm constantly worn out. This is sort of the opposite...

I haven't really worked exercise in much yet since I have enough things to try to keep going and, even though I know all about good endorphins and having more energy, I just can't do more right now. I had to take breaks between packing boxes today. Before I started this journey, I'd wake up in the morning and go nuts cleaning and knocking out to-do list stuff. Lately, I've been waking up tired from not sleeping well. I've also been having a daily slump in the late afternoon. I just want to take a nap and not move.

Considering how vigilant I've been, I think I can chalk it up to stress. It's really difficult to get my mind to calm down so I can sleep, and every time I wake up throughout the night the mental chatter just picks up where it left off. I've been trying to use meditation strategies to fall asleep, which does help, but it's kind of exhausting to push against the constant thoughts all the time.

On the upside, I have noticed that my moods are a little more even. I don't burn so hot and cold and I feel like I have a lot more patience with my kids which is a very good thing. So at least there's something to be happy about!


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