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I just weighed myself and I've gained more weight. I thought my jeans felt kind of tight, and it's nearly impossible to get my wedding ring on and off. Then again I was weighing myself after changs and cake. I realize that with the stress of moving, I haven't been eating all that well. And usually when I don't eat well, at least I stop and think about my portions. But today I ate a hot dog (about 12 points on ww), a milkshake at Burgerville (probably about 10 points), changs - and I usually do good, but I totally wasn't thinking today - so probably 30 points - and then I had cake - about 8 points. Where did my diet go? I even had TWO pieces of cake. I put sesame oil on my food and had noodles both times! These are things I've been better about in the past so that I was at least maintaining the weight I lost. Part of it is rebelling against having to be aware of what I eat, but part of it is that I'm just not thinking. Rebellion is not worth being fat.

Tomorrow I'm going grocery shopping so I can stop this fast food binge! I was even thinking to myself how all the exercise I've been getting should be so beneficial. Um...not when you eat 50 points a day! I need to recover my lifestyle! And, I need to start earning some income so I can go to yoga. I really really miss it and I haven't had time to go (2 weeks I've missed now). *sigh* It's $15 per session if you don't buy a package. This is not cheap if you go a couple times a week. And I really want to get to where I can work 2-3 times a week into my lifestyle. My body misses it. I can tell every time I start to even remotely stretch something that my body embraces the work I started at yoga and wants more. But first, I have to lose this 10 pounds I gained back and get back on my eating track. Seriously!!

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  1. This is probably not the healthiest way to do it, but I'm starting a diet pill tomorrow (or perhaps waiting till after Oktoberfest this weekend, cause we all know how that's gonna go with food/alcohol). I had oatmeal for breakfast, and a lean cuisine and some grapes for lunch. I'm hungry :( I also had coffee with nonfat milk and Splenda this morning. I went grocery shopping last night and spent 150 bucks - in hopes of no more going out to lunch or dinner, or stopping off at McDonalds for breakfast, and over-eating. Being hungry feels good though. I think I'm going to start a blog once I start this diet pill. I'll let you know how it goes. Good luck with your diet/lifestyle change and getting back into yoga. Have you thought about getting some yoga DVD's and doing it at home?

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