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Death to Enablers!

Okay, well maybe not death. But severe punishments anyway!

I am pretty sure I've gained one or two pounds. The weekend did not bode well for me. We went to the pacific rim festival where I ate a very healthy lunch, but drank a rather unhealthy amount of sake. The enabler then wanted to go to Red Robin for dinner. I tried the lettuce wrapped teriyaki chicken burger sans mayonnaise to try to make it healthier. I'm sure the french fries didn't help much though.

Sunday I ate pretty well for lunch. I had a white bean chili courtesy of cash & carry. Dinner was a mess though. We went bowling and the enabler suggested I eat what I want because we don't get out that often etc... I wanted to believe him so I ate tater tots again. I also had beer.

Yesterday I did super well. I had soup salad and breadsticks at Olive Garden - under 400 calories if you do it right - and I even did well for dinner. I had leftover salad with a piece of baked salmon. But then I ate a 700 calorie cookie. A cookie I didn't realize was 700 calories until after I had demolished it.

I haven't been keeping track on my excel file. This is probably my downfall. I still have about 20 more pounds to lose before I feel like I can relax about my weight. I really need to get back on the wagon! This has to start with fixing the problem of the enabler. If you are an enabler and you are reading this, just know that your "helpful" nudges in the wrong direction do have an effect. Sure we might feel better for that moment that we're eating food. But the resulting crash and the angry mood swing that comes after is hardly worth the nudge. So keep your wives happy by encouraging them to continue to do well if they're trying to get healthy rather than trying to make them happy with bad food!

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  1. Holy shit. What cookie was 700 calories??

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  2. It's Rich's commercial cookie dough. They use it in the snack bar at the bowling alley.

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