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Dreams for the Future

I would like it if when there is a photo of me my stomach doesn't slope out and away from under my boobs. That would be a sign of progress. Perhaps it's good that I despise my photos from the chest down because then I have incentive to resume my efforts.

On another note...

Sunday's dragon boat practice made me want to jump out of the boat and swim to shore. I was so frustrated because I couldn't find my groove and it didn't help to have both the guy behind me and the coach pointing it out to me the entire time. Just when I was starting to feel really good about it I have a practice like that! Perhaps this sport sticks because I can't walk away when it sucks. The water's too cold!
Hopefully tonight's practice will restore my zeal.

I need to work on eating better. That will be my goal the rest of the week. I think I will start by not eating the cookies I baked at 3 this morning. Yeah, good plan.

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  1. We all have practices like that. I remember one where I left so angry I started to cry on my walk home. Similar situation, couldn't find my groove, people in the boat wouldn't let me be. It was great to get back out on the water for the next practice, with a new determination and with the realization that comments in the boat aren't personal. In fact, all everybody wants is to be great. And to help everyone else be great. I hope you are having fun now. It can be very rewarding.

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