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Perhaps it's because I'm hormonal (yes I'm announcing my feminine instability to the universe via the internets), but the lack of interest or support on my blog is making me want to literally cry right now. This is my only outlet, my only cheerleading section, the only place I really get to talk about how !)(%%!)(#8 !(%0(* 0)(#*$)&!*&@#^!*!!!!!!!!! HARD this whole overweight thing is.

Okay I censored that last bit because my mom would say "do your students read this? you don't want any school districts denying you a job because of what you wrote on the internet do you?"

Well I'm frustrated MOM. I'm frustrated WORLD.

I just want everyone to know that even though I've been trying very hard to set up and maintain a lifestyle that would have me be more healthy, I'm not doing so well emotionally and I could really use some support. You have absolutely no idea how big of a difference it makes to me to know that other people are willing to try with me. To know that someone reads what I say. That someone understands and goes through it like I do. I feel like I'm doing this alone.

But I guess it doesn't matter if no one reads this or anything else I write anyway.

What are friends for if not to ignore the things that matter to you right?

I'm not fishing for sympathy or comments. I just feel like I need to be honest. I won't be posting for awhile.


  1. I'm moving my comment to the correct place. For some reason it wasn't allowing me to comment on this post the other day - so I left it on one of your older posts. So here it is in case you missed it :)

    Hey, your Confession post doesn't allow comments, so I'm leaving one here. I wish you didn't feel that way, but that's exactly what I'm going through. That's why I've been sucking at my blog too. I felt like no one was reading it anymore, and no one was leaving comments. Blogging is my motivation, and I've been losing it lately. But I'm trying something new, so read about it on my blog. And I still read yours, whether I leave comments or not. So keep going! You're doing great. I also think you're an amazing writer. It's very entertaining to read. I hope you don't give up - and good luck!!


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