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I've been thinking about what it is that has me pushing myself so much lately. I've already said that I'm equating my health to my work on my singing. And I think it may be more fundamental than that. You either do something or you don't. It's almost like a Dr. Laura approach. For me, I either run every morning and feel good and see drastic results in my body, or I don't and I stay the same. I either eat the sugar cookie and feel a brief sense of satisfaction, or I don't and feel long term satisfaction. I don't feel like I have to be as motivated if I'm this blunt with myself. I have this option every day. I don't have to make exceptions for myself all the time. 

Tomorrow I'm going to dinner with a friend (yay Frannie!) at the old spaghetti factory. We'll see if this tough love theory holds when I go. Perhaps I'll run twice tomorrow to make the choice easier. 

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  1. Good luck at the Old Spaghettie Factory. I think two runs is definitely called for... :-) I mean really, how can you order a salad when you go there?

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  2. I think the other thing to keep in mind is that you can go to places like the spaghetti factory and enjoy it, just in moderation. Get the salad dressing on the side, have one bread stick, etc.

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