I was sitting on the floor of my full weight watchers meeting today thumbing through the weekly newsletter when I ran across an article about staying motivated. The author of the article talked about going to her class reunion and how she wanted to go and show everyone how great she looks now.
This things got me thinking. I remember trying to reach my goal weight even back in high school. Next year is my 10-year class reunion, and while I really could care less about what my old classmates think about my physique, I do care that I have yet to reach my goal.
The good news is that even though I've been trying to lose weight unsuccessfully for 10 years, I have at least made some good dents in my lifestyle.
I went to the gym with my sister tonight and started to think about how much my attitude has changed towards food and exercise. I remember hating the gym when I first went back on swim team in high school. It felt like such a waste of energy, and the machines were so confusing and foreign to me. I remember not knowing what an elliptical was (I called it the swingy leg thing). Now, not only do I know what to do with an elliptical, I have no problem pushing myself through circuit training, stretches, and I'm even learning to be happy about feeling the burn.
This afternoon I got myself a chicken nugget meal at Mcdonalds thinking it would be a good reward for my weight loss, and I ended up not even eating it. I ate a couple chicken nuggets and found myself wishing they tasted less like a deep fryer. I could taste the lethargy that I would be feeling later if I finished my meal and I didn't like it! I ended up taking my $6 hit and buying myself another lunch at new seasons - a tuna salad sandwich on whole wheat bread with tomato and avocado (doesn't that even "sound" better?!)
Over the years I feel like my food preferences have drastically evolved and my body craves good food. I lost 2 pounds this week and I think I only tracked 3 out of the 7 days. This is a testament to the fact that I have really made lasting changes to my eating habits.
I just have 65 more pounds to lose. I want to focus on the big number instead of the milestones. This time the milestones are nice, but they're not good enough. This time I'm going to get to a healthy weight and stay there!