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Three Realizations

1. I stopped at the restroom in the hotel by the waterfront on my way to dragon boat practice tuesday. There's a full length mirror there. As I came out of the stall to wash my hands I noticed my reflection in it to the side of me. On my way out I stopped in disbelief. I was wearing a very form fitting tank top that dries quickly. Usually I expect to look like a stuffed sausage in it. But I didn't. I had to turn to the side and turn back again to make sure the mirror wasn't at an angle or something that would make me seem thinner. But it wasn't. I actually look better in my clothes.

2. On the way home from dragon boat practice I was thinking about this and also thinking about how I'm tired of counting calories. It occurred to me that I only have to count vigilantly until I weigh what I want to weight. And since I don't, I need to keep doing it. I would be devastated if I gained any weight back. I've reached this point in my dieting many times before. The difference this time is that I've been here before and I know that if I try to give myself some credit I'll end up where I've always ended up. This time has to be different. This time I have to fight the thought process that tells me I can keep doing this if I don't track. Because I can't and I haven't.

There's a jdrama that I watched about a teacher who worked extremely hard against odds to better her outcast group of deadbeat students. Before she entered her classroom every morning she'd go through a little ritual where she'd say "Fight On!" and stick her fist in the air. Even when she wanted to give up. I need this kind of checkpoint whenever I want to give up too.



3. I did my weekly weigh in today and I'm down a little more. 178. This is super good news! If I can get below 170 I'll be out of the obese category on the bmi scale. That would be nice.

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  1. JamiAugust 19, 2010 at 2:03 PM

    That's fabulous news! Congratulations, Beth. And thank you, by the way, for encouraging me to keep at it. It made the difference. I'll email you soon with an update, but for now, I just wanted to cheer you on. Because you HAVE done good for your body, and you're going all the way this time. Seriously. Go you.

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  2. Bethany Schweitzer GoshornAugust 19, 2010 at 2:12 PM

    Thanks Jami :)

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  3. Courtney DaiseyAugust 21, 2010 at 8:24 AM

    That's awesome! You really have made such wonderful progress! Keep up the great work Bethany! I know how good you felt when you looked in the mirror and saw the changes taking place. Way to go! You're on the road to success for sure!

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  4. Bethany Schweitzer GoshornAugust 22, 2010 at 5:14 PM

    Hi Courtney! I'm going to start following your blog too. Thanks for the words of encouragement and nice to meet you : )

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