And again

Went to yoga today at 4:30 instead of my usual 8:15 time (they only offer that time M,T, & Th). I've been trying the other times of the day to see what I like better. 9am is somewhat crowded, 6:30 is really crowded and really really hot. 4:30 today was fairly roomy and ridiculously hot, but that's because the instructor didn't know how to use the fans. It actually really sucked because I couldn't do near as much because I was too hot, so she opened the doors, which cooled it off, but too quickly. Then she figured out the fans right after which completely dried me off. So I was really hot, but the burning itchy kind of hot rather than the warm wet kind of hot. Which makes any contact to your skin rather painful. But I did get through the class. I didn't get emotional. I was very okay with allowing myself to just endure the heat lying on my back instead of pushing myself through the postures. And I wasn't angry for not pushing myself harder. Overall, it was a fairly good class.
I've been noticing that I have a really hard time not allowing my eyes to wander around the room. I like to see what other people are doing and how good they are. There's this little brown man that has been in a few of my classes that's amazing. Outside the room is a poster of all the postures demonstrated by Bikram done to their perfect point and this guy is on the verge of getting there. It really makes you appreciate it too when you're just trying to get the first step down. I feel like my body is starting to change every so slightly. My thighs don't feel quite so massive and that's good. When I start losing clothing sizes, I will really be happy. But I think my diet needs to get on board with this exercise thing. I'm craving french fries right now and I know that's definitely going to hold me back!