My Path to Outer Skinniness

I went out last night for Darren's dirty thirty. I watched a UCF fight for the first time, and that was interesting, but actually fun to my surprise. During some of the fights I had to sit on the floor because the room was full. I am such a nerd because I kept shifting to try to get a good stretch as long as I was down there. I didn't get to go to yoga yesterday at all and I won't get to go today either. So I amused at myself because I kept wanting to stretch all day. Afterward we went to Puffs. I was totally surprised when I went to dance and I found myself able to stay on the floor longer than I could before and while my thighs felt the burn - yeah, I have to drop it like it's hot or it's pointless - it wasn't nearly as bad as it was last time I went dancing. Yoga has given me more dancing skills! Oh, and when songs said to bend over to the front and touch your toes, I could do it. And I wanted to do it so I could stretch haha!

I put my Sigg bottle in the freezer yesterday to take to yoga class and I forgot about it. Unfortunately I forgot about it longer than I should have. Ice is mean! I had my WW meeting today. It's nice to have a group of people that are supportive and encouraging. Even if you only see them once a week. I have 9 pounds to lose to get my 10% goal. November will be a year that I've been going to Weight Watchers. I think I'm going to make it my goal to lose the 9 pounds by then. If I can't lose 9 pounds in 3 months, I guess I'll have to rethink my goals and what weight loss really means to me. I've been trying to lose this same weight though since January. It's kind of stupid actually that I'm dragging my feet this much. I think I need to start by going to get another sigg bottle.

My old friend Jami from Pacific is going to be my anti-fatty blog buddy I think :) We've been following each others blogs and she had a great idea to make a bucket list of things she'd like to be able to do in her life. I think this is a great idea. So here is my list of things I'd like to be able to do as a healthy person: - Get pregnant and half the cutest belly jutting from a thin frame. - Get through a workout without thinking to myself how fat I am and how this is going to help me not be. - Be able to go for a run without feeling like I'm going to die. - Be able to get through a yoga class without my feet hurting. - Rockclimb - Play softball again. - Teach my kids (whenever they get here) to eat in a healthy way (instead of to self medicate) - Be able to play with my nephews and my future kids at things that require more physical activity like hikes or sports games or running in circles! - Not die of or battle heart disease, diabetes, high blood pressure, cancer, ...

I debated about going to yoga. It's one of the only days that they offer the late class, and I really wanted to go for that reason. But about an hour beforehand, I just really didn't feel like going. I also didn't drink any water to prepare for class first. And I lost track of time and started to make cake. So, when I saw what time it was, I decided that yoga was a better choice than cake. The class was really small, and it was an instructor that I really like. I started out pretty strong, but I was having a really difficult time focusing because I kept being distracted by how fat I am. Part of it was that there was this lady I haven't seen in classes before there that was skinny and gorgeous and had the best legs I've ever seen. She looked like she was probably in her late 40's. It was depressing to feel less attractive at 25 than this woman twice my age. I noticed that she was struggling with some of the poses and that made me feel slightly better. But then th...

Went to yoga today at 4:30 instead of my usual 8:15 time (they only offer that time M,T, & Th). I've been trying the other times of the day to see what I like better. 9am is somewhat crowded, 6:30 is really crowded and really really hot. 4:30 today was fairly roomy and ridiculously hot, but that's because the instructor didn't know how to use the fans. It actually really sucked because I couldn't do near as much because I was too hot, so she opened the doors, which cooled it off, but too quickly. Then she figured out the fans right after which completely dried me off. So I was really hot, but the burning itchy kind of hot rather than the warm wet kind of hot. Which makes any contact to your skin rather painful. But I did get through the class. I didn't get emotional. I was very okay with allowing myself to just endure the heat lying on my back instead of pushing myself through the postures. And I wasn't angry for not pushing myself harder. Overall, it was a ...

I got this off of the website for the yoga place I go to. I also found out on their website that they have a free class on the first Saturday of the month at 11am. I have to teach at that time at Beacocks, but perhaps in a month or two I will be done there and can take some people if they want to go. Hatha Yoga Postures Standing Deep Breathing Half Moon Pose Awkward Pose Eagle Pose Standing Head To Knee Pose Standing Bow Pulling Pose Balancing Stick Balancing Separate Leg Stretching Triangle Pose Standing Separate Leg Head To Knee Pose Tree Pose Toe Stand Pose Dead Body Pose Wind Removing Pose Sit-up Cobra Pose Locust Pose Full Locust Pose Bow Pose Fixed Firm Pose Half Tortoise Pose Camel Pose Rabbit Pose Separate Leg Stretching Pose Spine Twisting Pose Blowing In Firm Pose

I didn't get to go to yoga yesterday because I didn't really plan very well. So I was glad to get to go today. On a day like today, yoga is the only thing that gets me off my couch. At any rate, I went to the late class, which I think is my favorite the more I go to different class times. It's less hot and less crowded. It was led by someone different than I expected, but I liked her so it was good. I'm starting to realize that even though every class is the same, the instructors can really make a difference in how hard I push myself. I pushed today. The standing series is an hour long and it's meant to build strength and balance. I have a very difficult time with some of it because my feet start to hurt really badly. I asked her about this after class and she said that it was very normal and that I just needed to build strength in my feet, which would come with time. I tried to work through the pain as much as I could, but I had to stop and massage my feet out afte...

I was so excited to go to yoga this morning. I didn't get to go yesterday because of work, and I've been kind of sore so I was looking forward to stretching some of my soreness out. I got there on time, and there was even a really pretty song on the classical music station on the way there. I put my mat down early and sat outside the room to wait for class. I went in to lay down and acclimate to the heat. People were still coming in and getting ready for class. When I stood up to start, I found that a woman had put her mat directly in front of mine so I couldn't see what I was doing in the mirror at all (very important). I figured I'd trudge along and do the best I could. But then I realized further in that the people next to me were so close that I couldn't stretch without being distracted by trying not to hit them. The class was kind of full. The distraction started to make me angry and then I started getting frustrated with my limited ability to do the poses prop...

I've decided that I want a better outlet for chronicling my various ventures into getting skinny. Most people that know me are aware that I am always working on this. So I'm going to attempt to spare the people I know all the details whenever I see them by writing them down here instead. We'll see if that happens! Mostly right now I just want to talk about Bikram Yoga. I started the monthly low cost trial on Monday last week. I started that day at the 8:15 evening class. I made it through, but spent the majority of my time just standing there on my mat trying not to throw up or pass out. The room is heated to 105 degrees. This makes it kind of difficult the first few times. After class I felt really exhausted and refreshed at the same time. You sweat like CRAZY and there are so many toxins leaving your body, even if all you do is stand there and breathe. I went again at the same time on Tuesday night. I didn't get the sick or dizzy stuff again and I did each pose once e...