My Path to Outer Skinniness

Today I had my first full therapy session complete with workout and stretches. It wasn't too intense because I didn't have my inhaler today but I can see where I'm going to be sore! I have a set of exercises to do at home to start out and then she'll have me doing some work at the gym later on. So far this feels a lot more like having a personal trainer than having therapy. I've been assigned the task of eating 100 grams of protein per day. She gave me some suggestions for foods I can be eating to get closer to this number every day. She's told me how much she likes the app I send my daily reports with. I debated about adjusting the settings to have me lose 1.5 pounds per week instead of 2 which would allow me to have 1500 instead of 1300 calories every day. I decided to keep it at 1300 calories because I tend to go up to about 1500 anyway. If I allow 1500 I'll probably go over that too, so better to stay lower. So far, still good.

Yesterday I had my initial consultation with my physical therapist. I had asked my doctor for a referral so I could get my abs worked back to center. She sent me to CH Physical Therapy. I have to say I feel a sense of hope like I've never had before. Tawnie, my therapist, measured my mobility and asked me what all of my issues were. After just a few minutes I already felt like the problems I have were not only better but were going to be better in the long run. She told me that we'd work on getting me to a place where my feet, calves, and shins don't hurt when I run, that I'd lose weight, and that I'd be able to keep it off. She also told me she has 3 kids, lost 65 pounds 6 years ago and hasn't gained it back. She knows what she's doing! So part of my program is to send her my daily food log in an e-mail. Lucky for me, I have the Lose It! app that makes this really easy to do. Speaking of which, I've managed to lose some weight! Almost 5 poun...

It's only been 5 days using the lose it! app but I wanted to check in on it. So far I see positives and negatives. The positives are that it's really easy to use. It lets me scan barcodes and so far it's found info for everything I scanned. I'm also far more aware of what I'm eating and the reward that exercise brings. The negatives are that I've gone over my calorie limit every day so far and I can't really tell if I've lost anything yet. My weight fluctuates enough that a two pound loss isn't very obvious because it could just be that I'm less bloated or it's a different time of the day. I also feel like I need to get better about having a daily exercise routine. Even if it's just a walk, going for a walk burns off that latte or piece of banana bread. I can see that I need to strike a deal with myself. I have the app set to help me lose 2 pounds per week. I either need to really start to limit my calorie intake or I need to adjust m...

I found something last night that I think might help. It's an app and a website called Lose It!  It's basically like the weight watchers app except instead of points it tracks calories. It's very basic. What I like about it (so far) is that it actually has foods I eat in its database - this was one of my biggest annoyances with WW. I entered in most of my food yesterday and found the culprit for my lack of weight loss. I eat too much. Crazy right?! It also gives me some calories back for playing the piano. It isn't much but I'm happy that I get something for it! If I actually stay under my daily calories in this app it has me set to lose 2 pounds a week which would put me at my target weight of 145 in December. The also lets you keep track with your friends. I kind of see this as being similar to meetings. If anyone wants to try it out with me it would be great to actually be accountable to people I know and care about instead of a bunch of old ladies at a weigh...

I'm tired of being fat. Nothing's working. What the hell?!