Monday, November 30, 2009

Surviving the Turkey Overload

Well, I haven't weighed myself since the big meal. I am kind of scared. I felt like I ate more than I should have, but in retrospect, I did not eat myself to an uncomfortable level of full at any point. I wanted to go for a walk, but the pouring rain made it kind of undesirable. So now I'm just trying to get back onto the pre-made meals wagon. My daily breakfast of pumpkin oatmeal is the best. With my schedule being so erratic it's nice to know I have a hot breakfast waiting for me in the fridge in a matter of minutes. Breakfast is the worst when it comes to skipping meals. I walked 4 miles last week as well. It's not much, but it's something. It occurred to me that this lifestyle change stuff is permanent. I've always been aware of this fact, but the reality of it sank in finally. If I start walking and lose weight, I can't stop walking if I want to keep it off. It will come creeping back. I hate that!

In new developments, I moved all of my voice students at Beacocks to Friday evenings. I did this not remembering that I have my weight watchers meetings on Friday evenings. This is horribly depressing. I love my meeting. I love the leader, I love the group, I love the location. But I really don't want to make more of a mess out of my schedule so I'm kind of stuck with it. Which means I have to find another meeting. Sad.

Tuesday, November 24, 2009

The Plan

Okay, so I'm serious now! I'm implementing my plan this week. So far it's pretty good. I made enough pumpkin oatmeal to have for breakfast for a week. I also baked myself 5 sweet potatoes for lunches and have apples and soup to go with them. I'm going to try eating the same thing for two of my meals every day.

Then I went through my recipes and healthified them for dinners and I have my meal list on my fridge. I have all the groceries for them minus the produce because I keep buying it and it keeps going bad. So far it's going pretty good this plan. Last night I made carnitas for tacos. I bought four pork picnic roasts in a pack from Cash & Carry for $10. I'm not kidding. Four. $10. Hell yeah!
Here's the recipe:
I put the roast in the crock pot with some water, salt and pepper, several garlic cloves and about a third of a bottle of hot sauce (the chipotle cholula rocks!). Then I let it cook all day (about 10 hours or so)

It was sooo good. I made a fresh salsa and cut up some avocado and fresh cilantro and put these on my tacos with some more hot sauce and low-fat sour cream. I also used the corn tortillas because they're fewer points than flour ones. OMG it was so good. So good that I probably ate about twice as much as I should have. But seriously, better lean protein and vegetables than french fries or ice cream right? I was going to try to cook some other things with the rest of my roasts, but I loved this so much I might make this with all of them haha!

Tonight I'm attempting crock pot mashed potatoes using low-fat cream cheese instead of milk and butter. The recipe says it's about 120 calories and 2 grams of fiber for half a cup. That's not quite 2 points. I'm going to make a salad and some green beans to eat with them and probably going to grill a couple chicken cutlets. I just have to say that I'm a huge fan of the frozen chicken cutlets from costco by the way.

I'm excited to see how this goes. This is what they suggest to do at weight watcher meetings all the time. I just hope it yields the results I'd like! Boots here I come!

Sunday, November 22, 2009

A breath of fresh air!

I've found new life for my motivation. I went shopping with my sister on Friday and tried on some pants that I liked at the Limited. Well, they are the same size 14 that I've been wearing the last year or so and they barely buttoned. Bad! This explains the sneaking suspicion I've been having lately that my pants are a bit too tight. Yeah, I've gotten fatter. The scale is more forgiving than my pants. This cannot happen. I refuse to get bigger! It's amazing the shot in the arm this gives me. I ordered salad the last few times I've been out to eat. I'm hoping that I might have an effect on my weight by choosing to eat things that I know are safe for weight watchers in general rather than tracking everything. I just can't maintain a lifestyle where I have to write down everything I eat. Point in case, my pants don't fit!
I think I'm going to see if I can go to normal yoga for cheaper than hot yoga. Hot yoga is $125 a month. I'm sure I can find something less expensive that works in my schedule. I think it will also help to have Paul on graveyard rather than swing so that I'm not eating out so much. It's really hard to cook a meal for one. Even if you save the leftovers for lunches. It's just kind of depressing.

I think my other new goal is going to be to fit into the dress Paul bought me about 3 years ago. I've never been able to get it on. It's a size 14 (which in this brand is probably closer to a 10). I want to wear it for new years. So I need to lose about 10 pounds this month if I want to wear it. And it's completely possible for me to do that. I just have to be relentless about what I eat and how much I exercise! And I can do that. I really can. And I will!

Friday, November 13, 2009

New Perspective

I've been saying lately how I'm not all that motivated to do better with my weight loss. And this is true. I really don't care right now about losing anymore weight. I'm definitely interested in not gaining anymore at least. I've decided that what I need is incentive rather than motivation. A year ago I joined weight watchers and I promised myself that when I reached my 10% weight loss goal I would buy myself some knee high boots. I'm very picky about my shoes these days and I want some that are comfortable and good for my posture. Essentially, I want really expensive ones. So this is a big deal. Well, I have yet to reach that goal. There was a point when I was only 4 pounds away. Now I'm 9 pounds away. At any rate, I have yet to achieve it, and I have long forgotten about my reward. But now that I want my reward again, I have a reason to work toward it.

So I am going to start tracking again beginning tomorrow. I have my weigh in tonight so I'll know what I'm in for better. Tracking is so very difficult! I find myself getting stressed out about going out to eat anywhere that I don't have a pre-planned meal worked out. I can't be that on top of it. I just don't function that way. So maybe I need a set game plan like salads only to have enough of a limit that I don't sabotage myself. Of course, this sucks, but it's easier than trying to sit and figure out how many points I could possibly be eating. This is where the diet kicks in I guess. The funny thing is that every time I order a salad, I'm always so surprised at how much I like it and I don't regret not ordering the burger or entree that I was debating about at all. Funny how that works. Funny how I know that and I still hate ordering salad.

Sunday, November 8, 2009

Update for the Sake of Updates

Weighed in Friday. Didn't really lose anything.
I have to say that having a meeting to regroup each week is a great thing. It's nice to have a group of people that you consistently check in with to gauge how you're doing. It's also nice to stop and think about what you're doing for yourself as well. I realized that I love the fall and it's a great time for weight loss for me because I love the foods you can eat in the fall. There's apples and squash, pumpkin and nuts and cranberries and pears and all sorts of comfort foods that are really healthy. I just have to cook and eat them is the problem here. I love the creativity that can happen when you have to cook healthy.
I made a cabbage and apple salad with sour cream and lemon juice that's completely yummy. I would have never thought of that before. I'm also going to attempt to make a kale and carrot salad that I tried at New Seasons. No cooking necessary! And quite delicious.
Perhaps instead of focusing on all of the things I'm not doing, I should focus on the things I enjoy and am doing.

Friday, November 6, 2009

Breakfast

I've noticed that when I wake up before noon and I eat a decent high fiber breakfast, I don't get as ravenous in the evening. Like, when all you can do is think about all of the things that you want to eat and you eat whatever you can find instead wishing it were all something else until you realize that you've completely sabotaged yourself. Breakfast seems to kill all that. It's amazing what a big difference it makes. I don't have that problem AT ALL when I've eaten in the morning.

Now to go make myself something to eat...

Tuesday, November 3, 2009

Blah

I've realized that I don't really care about my weight loss lately. I was in my bathroom and it occurred to me that I haven't had any desire to use my scale for a couple of weeks now. I usually weigh myself every morning before I get in the shower. It was like a little self esteem boost because I weigh the least first thing in the morning. Anyway, I've sort of lost my momentum. I don't really care either way how my weight watchers weigh in goes lately. Honestly I'm kind of happy in this state. It's nice not to have this drama. I have been trying to at least be aware of what I eat, even if I'm not writing it down or stopping myself from eating what I shouldn't have. But I figure it's better than nothing. I've been extremely bad about walking too, and I didn't even realize it until this afternoon. I haven't been walking in probably about two weeks. I did walk about half a mile yesterday to get my lunch yesterday though, but it's not nearly as much as I should be walking. I'm kind of tired of trying to set these goals all the time though. My zeal is dead. I don't care if I better myself. I don't care if I'm thin. I don't care if I'm all that healthy as long as I'm not inconvenienced (I do care about this gigantic knot that's been riding my shoulder blades however...).

Perhaps I need more to live for then. Given I have my private students and my family and friends to care about, but this subbing gig is the most disconnected work I can think of. I don't know if I"m working from day to day. I don't have time to learn any kids names to care at all about what they do or how well they do it. I'm basically an overqualified babysitter. At least it's a paycheck. Not much of a motivational job though. I'll admit the prospect of being unhealthy and pregnant isn't appealing. But it's at least a year or two down the road before I have to be all that worried about it. I feel like my current quality of life is not all that affected by my health. Any suggestions for a shot in the behind to get me motivated again? I've never been in this state before. I'm too uninterested to care and I can't ever remember a time when I didn't feel horrible about being fat.